& i wont regret for loving you

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2007-10-05T15:20:00.000-07:00

& all of the sudden iim missing the PAST -
iim missing the days in RSS `
Just now went sarah blog `
i miss her `
it has been long since i last met her
she is a great friend i must confess .
th-times we SPENT together is so COUNTLESS `
i know her since PRI ` 2 .
tru CHINESE ddance =,- ;
She's is V friendly yet kinda shy @ TIMES `
i miss all those days?
when i go to secondary school then i
realise what is called BADtiimes .
& yeahs . i suffer alot this years `
those great pains i went tru `
nobodys` will ever know `
my life went totally messed up ?
where is th-smile i use to have ?
brrrrrr` ! iim really missing those days
Just now watch 6/10 ` o6s VIDEO .
i cried . once again . those memories . RUSHED bck to my heart
i missed all of thems so much {
iim missing th - memories that is with them
& iim sorry for not treasuring thems`
& iim missing all those teachers in RSS -
mr sheikth i didnt forget uu (:
& iim wondering why must we seperate well,
when i watch th-6/10 videos .
i wonder & missed .
if you ask me make a wish i will say
hope ii can go bck to last yr .
this yr i suffer a lot .
some undescriblable pains .
have you ever kena BACKSTAB by th one you TRUSTED th most ?
& kena scolded like no one else business ?
& when th wh0le school strt calling you a SLUT & bitch `
& when all problem cropped up ?
this year ` no life { simple discribtion`
if i put a thought of last year
WHO IS THE ONE WHO SPEND TIMES with you ` ?
i will say ` it's sarah .
YEAPS . we quarrel before . & thats what makes us STRONG `
yeas . i totally i agree iim too naive .
i trust ppl to easily .
iim an idiot `
a moron`
my tears rolled while writing .
sarah
i must tell you these `
iim sorry for illtreating last time
iim sorry for not treasuring uu last time
iim sorry for breaking my promise last time
sister ii miss uu .
if sarah you saw these post .
pls .... dont abandon me .
& ii still cant forget th-days .
who is th ones who lend u shoulders ?
who is th ones who made u smile on th very day ?
who is th ones who made u forget everything ?

& iim missing th past
after all these thinks & thoughts .
ii remembered one things that MRS.CHUA have told us .
` never regret what u did `
i miss mrs b0on . she is the REAL teacher
she gone tru tears & many sleepless nights just to teach us & yet
we shooon her like nobodys business
iim sorry mrs.boon
iloveuu .
i still rmb i used to say `
6/10 o6`s boy sucks . they r evil & stuffs `
but letme make this clear .
they aint that bad luhs
i can tell you
the reall BAD ` is
TEMASEK 1unity 07s`
you wont know how evil they are .
every single person in th-class have motives `
& one simple things . they simply dont give a darn`
th girls inside no one is trusted ?
i can tell you these my class no one can be trusted `
all is bckSTABBERS & bitches .
they are HORRIBLES monsters that biites . which is true

& TRUST me .
when i go into th class .
i tot everyone is an angel `
when i step in first 3mths { woahhh` darn nice ah `
other then that i suffer like fcuk `
dont ask me why
ask those who make me suffer WHY ?
& yes she is th-one who make me cry thousands TIME`

& saying RELATIONSHIP`
i can tell you this year is a total failure `
either is i can get that guy
but that guy isnt th one i liked/love
or BREAKUPS~
i having sort of phobia in relationship`
& sometimes when bitches spread some untrue stuffs
thats` the time u suffer probably`
WHATEVER i want i wont get .
once again iim saying these
iim just a simple girl `
asking for a simple relationship`
iim asking for nthing else `
thats all i wanted ?

& to that bitch (you knw who you are)
if you think iim wrong .
fine go ahead luhs .
iim sick of arguing ii just want my life `
YOU owed me .
letme tell you these what goes ard comes ard `
you are a christian .
oh god pls dont let god down`
you are making us embarass bcos of u .
pls`
CHRISTIAN doesnt take revenges & make ppl suffer `
& dont ever tell me nonsense such as ` iim helping u { `

& my life went completely haywire`
bcos of th words u said `
bcos of th things u SPREAD `
& all just bcos u are happy with it `
& pls live up to your age `
15 behave like a small baby `
dont always think you are such a MATURED young lady`
you aint
cause mature ppl wonts go ard spread untrue stuffs . & makes Friends suffer `
whenever i like who i tell u
u will discourage & say ``
aiya he wont like u want la `
& when i eventually get him you will say
i surely is flirt with him want `
& one fine last thing to tell you `
if you doesnt have good comments for a person then kindly
shut the fcuk up`
dont open your mouth to pollute th air `
& you living in this world is just wasting spaces ` & making th place STINKS {

Talking about the past once agains `
&YES iim always missing th-past `
i cant deny that i dont know how to treasure in th PAST `
SarahNg ` 5yrs SIS `
MELISSAng ` 6yrs SIS `
ilovethems `
i treasure thems`
i still wanna say 2oo6 rawks .

well i think i must stop talking about past let talk about pressense `
thought iim unhappy iin school
but outside ii still have alot of supportive gans `
& th ones is ahbboy ; chloe & germaine `
they nvr say no to my request `
always with me `
iim obsess with thems`
& now iim iin city harvest church `
iim happy over there `
iim WHOAAAA over ther `
iloveall my cg members `
cause THEY care .

They are really those kind of REAL friends `
& those is all i wanted -
iim satisfied with what i have
ii aint greedy `

& one thing i could be sure `
& ilovethems `
theylovemethought `

ii must confess i still cnt change my
ahlians` act
i will try to get ride of it `
vulgarites { smoking { drinking `
i cnt stop`
dont force me
yeahs `
& DONT judge or LABEL me `
ii aint what u think `
ii might b an angel `
or & devil who knows ?
or maybe iim h0rriblle `?

&& ii know something a fact that wont change `
ahboy & chloe will always support me whenever iim down`

& one thing that is true `
they never DIES `
3oo9o7 `
trust me i really love thems { i have alrdy experience
the EXP of l00sing thems `
that HURTS .
i loose APPETIETE & cry like a baby

OHWELL `
there is FRENDS that i wish to keep but i couldnt `
i slipped `
&IVAN -
he lEaVeD`
i have loose him `
haiis . SAD `

th-deathEXP`
ii really want to get a death EXP `
all those EXP `
ii wanna get bang by th- car
i wanna jump dwn building `
alot lahs

&&& ` i dont find anymore reasons to live in these world ` .

THATguy {
boy iim missing you `
boy iim missing everything
boy iim sorry `

& NOW { `
HEHEHES ;D
th time now is 7.o1am`
hehes ;D
& today is SATUREEEDAAY ;D
i go crazyy `
HAHAS ;D
now iim listening to gang poem
YEAHS ` iim stuck to the 18syh want so nice `
[:
iloveit `
LTR meeting CHLOE pigpig first `
i meeting lorraine @ 3.30 `
i gona miss AHBOY .
didnt see him for th 2 day le `
):
imisshim`
hahas .
okay lah
i shall end here bcos ii noe i too long winded lerhs `

- DDAPHNE `
; LEFT WITH GIGGLES `

` UNbearable PAINS #

2007-10-05T09:18:00.000-07:00

do you realise my PRESENSE ?
& care about my absense ?
or am i just a NOBODY in your life boy ?
i need you luhs ?
& all those pains that you given me ?
& you had already CARVE it on my mind luhs `
& boy im telling you this ?
i love uu like no one else BUSINESS -
& iim missing you everysecond .
i could make myself DRUNK just to forget things & stuffs about u .
i could make myself hurt just to attract your attention ;
i could make myself disapear for your happiness .
boy can u feel it ?
it's all love ?
L-o-v-e .
why ? tell me why ?
why must u hurt me like no one elses' business .?
mm i a OBSTACLES to u ?
boy i love u (:

& all i could say is . KISSGOODBYE `

the last GOODBYE ?

2007-10-05T00:18:00.001-07:00

Ytd went to ECP with
&CHLOE . AHBOY ?
hehehs . ahboy that pig ?
he go rollerblade all the way from tamp. to ECP ?
stupid rights ?
while me & chloe sit taxi ?
HEHEHES ;D
the fcuking taxi cost alot ?
$11.70 ?
i feel like murdering the taxi uncle luhs
thnks god i didnt lol
then reach there ahboy havnt reach
then me & chloe wait for the stupid ahboy
then me & chloe sitting @ the bench there hehes :D
then saw one angmoh kia
fcuking cute cans ?
i am like ?
WHOOTS . cuteyy !
hehehehs ;D
Then i go approach the BABY cause it's too cute . ehehes .;D
then the baby say ! HELLLOS ! wave the hand HEHEHES ;D
then the ahboy finally REACH ~
but guess where the stupid boy is ?
LAGOON ?
nabeh very the GONG ~
ahahas .
STUPIDD .
Then we sit down . talktalktalk & laughlaughlaugh -
& aft tht the ahboy complain THIRSTYY .
then lihong go buy for him HEHEHES ;D
Then she end up buyiing GULP & brain feezer . didnt buy for me ):
sadlly NABeHS !
but i share with LIHONG nahs .
thena aft we talk for another 1hr liddat we go lagoon .
on our way to lagoon its' alrdy like 7.39 lerhs .
then we WALKWALKWALK . ahboyboy rollerblad-ing . suang sia .
then we walkwalkwalk &talktalk .
then ahboy . PADOOOM . fall down . then the hand got wounds . PAINsiah .
me & chloe was too shock to laugh l0l .
haahahahahahas `
then we walk agains .
saw GOLDEN retriever . so fucking cute .
then me & ahbboy go touchtouch
ehehs . cute sehs .
ahahas .
then funny sia end up the doggy wanna follow the ahboy sehs
hahahas ;D
then the ahboy go duno tel the dog whats .
then the dog go bck lerhs
then we continue walking to lagoon .
then reach there we bully &CHLOE to buy us drink hehehes ;D
ME drink . sugarcane juice ; ahboy & chloe drink the lime juice .
eeeyer .
not nice want luhs i sip a lil`bit from CHLOE nahs .
hahahs . then we go buy oyster egg .
nabeh . expensive & not nice . hayos . me ; chloe & ahboy
all eat almost vomited . not nice wans . lim-beh want vomit lerh nahs .
then fin. eating . waiting for the slowslow boy EAT ~
finish eating aft l0ng time struggle we finally go buy 2bottle of heniken (not shure if i spell rights )
hehehs ;D
so nice.
THEN i shall cencored some things . as me myself also dont' know what i say leave it to CHLOE & ahboy say luhs
hahahas, then whn i woke up .
i was fcuking emo about some stuffs.
I am like wtfcuk .

' Sometimes Some stuffs . some people might rather not to know then know '
& my Last sentance is . ' GOODBYEEE (: '

* - l0nqql0nqq .

2007-08-14T19:31:00.001-07:00

iit has been l0nq dhat ie neber post lers;

seriously ie feel so dAM c0nfuse ?

a l0ve TRIANGLE ?

one boy 2 gal ?

ie tink its' all a DREAM

ie wna let go yet ie dunch DARE

ie wne GO yet ie dunwna

ie wna DIE

pls attend mye FUNERAL .

ie feel like DYING inside dhe DArK little r00m

ie wishh t0 diie INSIDE MYE r00m

wna DIE insidde ME

wna DIE

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iehatel0ve .

` l0ves sucks .

- 1o.33am

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